love sheds tears

The dust has settled
and time has caught us crying
we could make excuses
but we'd just be lying
numbness is the last sensation
dumbness is the realisation
only our own hearts we've broken
...and love sheds tears
for all the words that died unspoken

made in heaven

J: I'm left with the awful gut wrenching feeling that if only I'd said the right thing, something different, something that would have touched his heart (if he in fact has one!) then I could have turned it all around and had a different outcome, even though I know in reality that he'd already made his decision and nothing I said or did would have changed his mind. Feel so desolate. I'm so stupid...
F: I know exactly how you feel - it's cruel isn't it but you're the victim of an organising principle that's about exploiting your love and care and not validating it. It's hard not to feel angry and cheated and it's impossible to make someone care when they don't. I'm so sorry baby, I know how much it hurts.
J: I know you're right but I'm still so in love with him regardless. I just don't understand how he could willingly decide to enter an arranged marriage with someone he admits he's not in love with...

Prince of Persia

a long time ago in a galaxy far far away...

Viktor Frankl

Another poem by Zach

You are colour
I am a drawing
I will befriend you
I am sweet
never sour
If you were bitter
I'd never flower

what a tangled web men weave...

S: I can't understand you J, was I just someone to have sex with for you? I really liked you and I thought you liked me too
J: You were married and you lied to me - you got that the wrong way round I was just someone for you to have sex with on the side
S: I wasn't married. She was my ex and she couldn't understand why I wanted to be with you when she's only 26 and you're a lot older than her. I liked you more than anyone J and she just wanted to mess with my relationship with you
J: So how did she know how old I was just from finding my number on your phone? Maybe we should all get together and ask her and sort this out!
S: I told her I'd be introducing my boy to you so I told her everything about you
J: This all happened 2 years ago - why are you contacting me now?
S: Because I still miss you...
thinks J: Liar, liar, pants on fire!

Fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me...

She and Him

'I know and you know it too that love like ours is terrible news...'

The Scene: Supermarket checkout
Young boy at till serving a little old lady who is chatting away endlessly whilst he is very politely responding to her. After about 10 minutes of this she finally leaves and I get to the checkout
J: if there was an award for patience you'd definitely get it, still she was very sweet
Boy: well you'd think so wouldn't you but last week she threatened to stab someone in the cafe with a pair of scissors because they were talking on a mobile phone and it annoyed her apparently.
J: oh my god you're kidding
Boy: no not at all, I was surprised to see her here again, I thought she'd been banned!

Zach's 'The boy who cried "wolf"' story

A boy was out playing by himself when a wolf came along. The boy cried "wolf", the wolf ate the boy. The end.