ok...?

N: Hi how are you?
J: I'm ok - bit down in dumps but ok
N: oh not good is all ok?
J: yeah everything's 'ok' it's just not 'great' ...I don't want to be happy I want to be ecstatic!
N: at the mo I'm being philosophical and'ok' is just fine sadly - but I do know what you mean
J: I just want to be madly in love with someone who's madly in love with me - is that really too much to ask?
N: you're asking the wrong person really - but keep your chin up girl!
J: ok I will - have just come back from yoga so I can pretty much contort myself into any position! Slight exageration but I was pleased to discover that I'm getting better at it
N: I want to go yoga that's on my list - sounds fab, all those positions hey , good for the soul?
J: oh it doesn't do you any good on a list you actually have to go... I had it on my list for ages but I didn't improve at all until I actually went...

what you doing Blue...

What you doing Blue? by Julie Switzer Cook | BOOK INFO

what's the matter

A: I was just ringing to see how you got on at the accountants
J: Oh I've just left - I'm walking...no I'm running back to my car. I couldn't get out of there fast enough to be honest. It's like Rodney and I are 2 entirely different species we just don't talk the same language at all and our brains work in totally different ways. He always looks at me somewhat pityingly - the way most english people treat foreigners!
A: I know I always worry when you're there. I don't think you and Rodney should ever be left alone in a room together and you should NEVER ever shake hands with him - it would be like matter meeting antimatter the resulting explosion could destroy the known universe!

She walks like she don't care..walking on imported air...

you can sometimes find wisdom is the weirdest places....

"If you are on a train, will you reach your destination quicker by running up and down the corridors? Some processes just need to take as long as they need to take. That's not easy when you feel a burning desire to get them over with as quickly as possible. Yet that's actually all the more reason to make sure that you don't waste your energy. Even if it means incurring the disapproval of people who do not understand, you need to pull back a little and pace yourself this month. Focus on what can be done, and become less agitated about whatever, for now, cannot be altered."

poem by Zach aged 9

There are only dreams
There might yet be hope for me
For love I will not forget like summer blue
Autumn and winter, spring too...
I am a drawing, you are the colour
and you give life to me

...so tell me darling do you wish we'd fall in love?

Risky Business

Loving anyone is risky
Loving someone an awful lot is awfully risky – it leaves your heart unprotected and vulnerable and sometimes it gets unintentionally crushed by the slightest of slights
Loving anyone is joyful
Loving someone an awesome amount is awesomely joyful – it fills your heart up and just a smile can light up your whole day
We make our choices - we know the risks, we know the rewards.

sleds and igloos

of mice and men...and msn messenger

R says (15:35):
wat r u doing
J says (15:36):
I'm at home today got snowed in and couldn't make it in to work.
I just went out to supermarket and was driving along and a mouse ran up my arm! Most perturbing! It must have got in my car to get out of the snow. I couldn't stop straight away as roads were so bad so it went and sat by the speedometer and sat washing itself whilst I drove - it was hilarious
R says (15:40):
i want to fuck u
J says (15:40):
oh...you don't want to hear my amusing anecdotes then?

footnote 'R' is an ex who J hasn't seen in more than a year