these days

It's a good day when I don't get called a ' fucking whore'
A good day when I'm not too scared to walk out the door
I know I should really set the bar a little higher
And it shouldn't take a major brain re-wire

but...

It's a good day when he doesn't scream and shout
A good day when he doesn't throw his weight about
So I close my eyes and breathe a grateful sigh
and tell myself another idiotic lie

claws

once they have their claws in you
it's hard to get away
you might get ripped to shreds
so it's easier to stay

once they have a hold on you
the more you try to leave
they grip you ever tighter
till it's hard to even breathe

once they have their hooks in you
every day's a fight to live
survival's your new mantra
forbear, forget, forgive

I can only

I can only feel your love now 
like a half-remembered tune 
you're a shadow in the darkness 
when clouds obscure the moon 

I can only hear your voice now 
like an echo from the past 
muffled sounds of love and laughter 
each more distant than the last 

I can only see your face now 
when I look deep inside my heart 
but I don't do that very often 
in case it tears it all apart

hay!

tourist

You were just a tourist in my holiday home heart
So why do I still miss you after all this time apart?
Your religion seemed to mean much more to you than me
The price I had to pay for what I thought you got for free!
I was just a pitstop in the perfect life you'd planned
So all the dreams I hoped for turned to ashes in my hand
If I'm with someone else these days I only want you more
And wish it were your clothes still messing up my floor...

Montmerency - the cat I had when I was young ...

he was a great cat!

Linseed sea

Passenger - Let her go

Staring at the ceiling in the dark 
Same old empty feeling in your heart 
'Cause love comes slow and it goes so fast 
Well you see her when you fall asleep 
But never to touch and never to keep 
'Cause you loved her too much and you dive too deep

only know you love her when you let her go...

Hot Dog - Sunday walkies

Toadpoles in July