Remember now?

Sometimes out of the corner of my eye
I catch a glimpse of dreams I used to cherish
covered in dust
bright light dimmed
unloved, forgotten and discarded
what would it take to resurrect them?
do I have the strength or inclination?
I should have done better
shouldn't have been so scared
shouldn't have taken the path of least resistance
I shouldn't have left my dreams behind


who wrote that?
oh yeah I remember now
...it was me!

change in the whether

Used to be that I would wake up in the morning and wonder whether I was going to get shouted at today whether I had committed some great unforgivable sin whilst I was sleeping that would mean that I deserved to be shouted at and humiliated whether I would say something innocuous that would start WW3 or maybe I would make a joke that would offend some small part of his ego that would ruin the whole day and maybe the following day and many days to come or maybe he would have had a dream about me and in that dream I'd not been very nice...or he'd see a news item that would hit a nerve and he would remember something I'd done years ago that he didn't approve of and that would be all the excuse he'd need to lash out at me.
Well I don't wonder 'whether' any more I just wonder when