Thunder and Lightning

 I liked your lightning but not your thunder

all that noise drowned out the joy 

destroyed the wonder

I have scant memories of you and me

but fewer still of us and we...

Best dog, best friend

Honestly, I don't know if there's an afterlife but no-one deserved their wings more than you Leo. Thank you for being the best company and the sweetest friend. "Everyone thinks they have the best dog. And none of them is wrong". 

So I'll say 'Night night' again tonight and every night baby boy, as I have for 3 whole years, just in case you can hear me. 

Because love is forever and true hearts never die

 

Tuskyn's Prayer

May the great spirit mother of this world and the next welcome dear Tuskyn into her loving arms and hold him safe with all our babies who have gone before, until we meet them again. May he feel our love go with him on his journey and know he lives forever in our hearts and that his light still shines as brightly in all our lives 

Leo Lightning Strike

 

 

The saddest thing that I can think of right now is to not remember you, all the tears, the pain, the laughter and the joy, the thousands of times I kissed your head and told you that I loved you.You would look at me with those big brown eyes and I just knew I'd miss you all my life because time runs short with four legged friends

 

27 Jan 2012 - 07 Sept 2018

 

Emotional Dementia

Bitterness is anger that's forgotten to forgive
Now love simply can't remember where it used to live
Anger is just pain that never took the time to heal
That's what tends to happen when it hurts too much to feel

Half a lie

I want to believe you
You know that I do
But half a truth's
Still half a lie
Life's too short
For half a measure
Love in haste
Repent at leisure

Leo

I still have all the love that couldn't save you
Wrapped up in all the years life never gave you
So much of pain starts out as pleasure
Time hurts and heals in equal measure
I miss your face, I miss your grace
But hope you know I've kept your place
Some hearts are born and some we make
Those hearts that love won't let us break
The heart you grew still lives in me
And I'm grateful for your company

10 tons

You've been killing me
but not with kindness
had 10 tons of love
but only hate could bind us
10 tons of love
still only tears could find us


10 tons of love
9 tons too much ...

is it a bird?

Conversation in the car on the way to school...
Zach: Sorry I was late this morning but I saw a beautiful bird in the garden and I stopped to take a photo. You're always telling me to notice beautiful things...
Me: Oh of course! What sort of bird was it?
Zach: It was one of those birds that look like a penguin...I don't know what they're called
Me: Pretty sure we don't have any birds that look like penguins visit our garden! What colour was it?
Zach: It was black and white
Me: Do you mean a magpie?!

Zach: Yeah that's it!

Zach is currently studying Maths, Further Maths and Chemistry for A-Levels - but not ornithology it would seem!

Remember now?

Sometimes out of the corner of my eye
I catch a glimpse of dreams I used to cherish
covered in dust
bright light dimmed
unloved, forgotten and discarded
what would it take to resurrect them?
do I have the strength or inclination?
I should have done better
shouldn't have been so scared
shouldn't have taken the path of least resistance
I shouldn't have left my dreams behind


who wrote that?
oh yeah I remember now
...it was me!