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Davey Dance Blog - Rock you like a hurricane

2012-01-20T20:13:00.001Z

DaveyDanceBlog -119- Hurricane Irene - Cooper Union from GuerillaGorilla on Vimeo.

Just awesome!

2012-01-08T16:54:00.001Z

Fun with facepaint

2012-01-05T21:20:00.004Z

animusic

2011-12-04T23:07:00.000Z

7 Habits

2011-10-21T08:38:00.003+01:00

J: So what is it you're doing at school today and tomorrow instead of normal lessons?
Zach: It's called the 7 habits of being an effective teenager. It's really boring!
J: Is it? Why's that?
Zach: Well they make it sound like being a teenager is a terrible thing and I'm sure it can't be that bad...
J: No, of course it's not there's loads of great things about being a teenager. You get to be more independant, you'll start to learn to drive a car...
Zach: Yes and the older I get, the closer I am to having sex for the 1st time so that'll be good
J: er yeah ... that's an interesting point. Bet that wasn't one of the 7 habits they mentioned though was it?!

Goodnight Internet

2011-10-17T22:36:00.000+01:00

is it really?

2011-10-09T12:22:00.005+01:00

the plant in my bedroom

that you declared deceased

is growing now

I watered it

just a little

every now and then

and kept the faith

and god rewarded me with a leaf

then two then three

and every time I pass it now

I smile

and hear you say

'that's dead you know'

Is it baby?

...is it really?

Happy ending

2011-10-02T21:36:00.010+01:00

Video from KarmaTube

Read Shirleys story Shirley

holding the baby...

2011-09-25T08:35:00.001+01:00

Constant craving

2011-09-18T22:31:00.007+01:00

M: So what the new guy you've been seeing like?
J: He's nice. I'm not in love with him but he's a distraction from my broken heart. It's funny, other guys I've seen have made me miss S more than ever but I don't seem to miss him quite as much when I'm with Greg.
M: Oh that's encouraging maybe this is going to lead to something more.
J: No I don't think so in fact I think I've figured out what it is. Greg is really quite different physically to S but there are certain aspects to his personality that are similar - like he's really arrogant and super-confident but he's also warm and sweet and funny ...
M: and...?
J: Well I think that he gives me a small amount of what I used to have with S. He's like a nicotine patch for my heart, he stops the cravings just enough to make it bearable...

Autumn is a second spring when every leaf's a flower.... Albert Camus

2011-09-11T22:16:00.003+01:00

Set Fire to the Rain

2011-08-12T11:00:00.001+01:00

Rational Thought

2011-08-07T11:29:00.006+01:00

Stupid to love someone it's incredibly dumb they rip out your heart and then tear it apart you give love away think that they'll stay but they move on with ease despite all your pleas and you toss and you turn and you bleed and you burn whilst they dance the fandango and let you go hang though the blood in your veins still grasps for the reins and you yearn for more passion to save you from rational thought...

The Devil Inside

2011-07-24T23:07:00.003+01:00

Breaking up is still so very hard to do...

2011-07-22T17:16:00.003+01:00

S: This feels weird... now that I'm married it just feels all wrong
J: This isn't going to work is it?
S: No
J: We have to say goodbye then don't we..?
S: Let's just do it now and get it over with.
J: Ok...
S: Please forgive me. I never wanted it to end this way between us.
J: I know ... I understand
S: You're not going to cry are you?
J: Yes of course I am. I still love you ...
S: I still love you too.

How does your garden grow...?

2011-07-17T10:30:00.006+01:00

So, remember when your heart's been battered
And you think the pain was all that mattered
There's scope to learn and more to gain
By knowing gardens only grow in rain
The lesson's in the love, not in the loss
The value's in the kiss, not in the cost...

Pete Doherty - Music when the lights go out

2011-07-10T12:22:00.002+01:00

running shorts...

2011-06-29T22:53:00.003+01:00

overheard at Zach's school sports day - 2 small boys talking
1st boy: Hey look at Danny run. He's really fast considering his height...
2nd boy: Yes he is - that's because he has a very low centre of gravity...

now back to me...

2011-06-28T22:36:00.000+01:00

Country Song

2011-06-26T14:50:00.004+01:00

I've listened to the words you say
Tried to understand them anyway
You talk so much my head is spinning
Don't know what game you think you're winning
Seems on the days my love's departing
You feed me just enough to keep me starving

So let me go ... let me go
If you can't find the love inside you
To fill my heart the way it used to
Just close your eyes
Walk away
We'll make love
Some other day
And stop looking for the answers to our future in our past

I've got 10 good reasons for walking away
And the one bad one that always makes me stay
I'm dragging round a dream that ended
Long before the plot got mended
You say you will even though you won't
This loose connection's our sticking point

So let me go ... let me go
If you can't find the love inside you
To fill my heart the way it used to
Just close your eyes
Walk away
We'll make love
Some other day
And stop looking for the answers to our future in our past

Zach's first suit...

2011-06-12T22:50:00.005+01:00

First words on opening his eyes this morning
Zach: Yesterday was great!
J: You enjoyed going to Pauls's wedding then?
Zach: Yeah ... I made new friends and had loads of fun
J: It was lovely wasn't it, probably the best wedding I've ever been to.

For dn on a Monday morning...

2011-06-05T22:56:00.001+01:00

Speechless

2011-05-24T22:29:00.002+01:00

how to tie your shoes...

2011-05-24T22:06:00.001+01:00

On stranger tides...

2011-05-22T21:33:00.004+01:00

J: Pirates of the Caribbean 4 was way better than I thought it would be didn't you think?
Zach: Yes it was good, though I think it should have had a happier ending
J: Oh they can't have a completely happy ending otherwise they couldn't make a number 5!
Zach: Yes I suppose so. Can we watch the start of the 1st one when we get home mum as I only saw it from halfway through on the television
J: Yes of course I think I've got the DVD... oh no wait I think I lent it to S a couple of years ago and he never gave it back.
Zach: Really? What else did you lend him that he never gave back?
J: Haha ... only my heart honey!
Zach: Hehe.. hasn't he given that back either yet?
J: No not so far he hasn't.
Zach: Well really that's a good thing when you think about it isn't it?
J: Dunno... depends what he's doing with it I suppose...

If you ever come back...

2011-05-22T11:51:00.000+01:00

Turn off the light

2011-05-22T10:56:00.002+01:00

...there's an aching inside my head it's telling me 'you're better off alone'. But after midnight...

Better Days

2011-05-22T10:45:00.000+01:00

Fragments from "Auguries of Innocence"

2011-05-22T10:39:00.000+01:00

To see a World in a Grain of Sand
And a Heaven in a Wild Flower,
Hold Infinity in the palm of your hand
And Eternity in an hour.

A Robin Redbreast in a Cage
Puts all Heaven in a Rage.
A dove house fill’d with doves and pigeons
Shudders Hell thro’ all its regions.
A Dog starv’d at his Master’s Gate
Predicts the ruin of the State.
A Horse misus’d upon the Road
Calls to Heaven for Human blood.
Each outcry of the hunted Hare
A fiber from the Brain does tear.

He who shall train the Horse to War
Shall never pass the Polar Bar.
The Beggar’s Dog and Widow’s Cat,
Feed them and thou wilt grow fat.
The Gnat that sings his Summer song
Poison gets from Slander’s tongue.
The poison of the Snake and Newt
Is the sweat of Envy’s Foot.

A truth that’s told with bad intent
Beats all the Lies you can invent.
It is right it should be so;
Man was made for Joy and Woe;
And when this we rightly know
Thro’ the World we safely go.

Every Night and every Morn
Some to Misery are Born.
Every Morn and every Night
Some are Born to sweet delight.
Some are Born to sweet delight,
Some are Born to Endless Night.

can you spot a fake smile?

2011-05-18T22:56:00.005+01:00

I got 16 out of 20
http://www.bbc.co.uk/science/humanbody/mind/surveys/smiles/index.shtml

Smile...

2011-05-18T22:48:00.000+01:00

Sit Down

2011-05-15T12:48:00.001+01:00

If I hadn't seen such riches I could live with being poor...

I want that man...

2011-05-06T22:41:00.000+01:00

Seconds out,,,

2011-05-06T22:09:00.002+01:00

Zach: You know that George has the exact same watch as me?
J: Yes
Zach: Well his watch is exactly 2 seconds slower than mine
J: Is it?
Zach: Yes... so we always use my watch when we're going to lunch and his when we go back to class. It's only 2 seconds but it all counts...

Face it...

2011-04-29T22:45:00.003+01:00

Facebook is to friendship
what pornography is to true love...

this is the life

2011-04-29T22:33:00.000+01:00

Marbella

2011-04-26T21:41:00.003+01:00

Have just had a lovely week in Marbella (despite the torrential rain!)and must thank Mike Drury for his help. His blog is full of interesting and useful facts and the info he gave me regarding my trip back to the airport by bus was spot on. It's really refreshing to find someone so helpful. Anyone thinking of visiting Spain I recommend reading Mike's blog
http://blog.gomarbella.com/

crumbled crumpled crushed

2011-04-08T22:02:00.006+01:00

S: I'm so sorry for all the pain I caused you and everything I've done to your heart
J: It's ok ...I don't blame you for anything ... I knew what I was getting into but decided to risk it anyway. That's just the way the cookie crumbles sometimes...
S: Our cookie got totally destroyed honey...
J: It sure did baby ... it sure did

humpty dumpty sat on a wall
humpty dumpty had a big fall
and all the kings horses
and all the kings men
had omelette for breakfast
again and again and again...

Ratios and percentages

2011-04-03T13:58:00.002+01:00

Zach: Mum I'm trying to do my homework and I don't understand ratios...
J: Ok ...do you understand the sentence 'leave me alone I'm trying to take a shower'...?
Zach: Haha ok

Mother's day

2011-04-03T13:55:00.002+01:00

Zach: Happy Mother's Day mum I've brought you breakfast in bed and a cup of tea...
J: Awww thank you. Hey it's still dark...what time is it?
Zach: Six o'clock...
J: Thanks baby that's lovely

Dating your ex...?

2011-03-25T22:33:00.002Z

Hermes Conrad: Dating your ex Fry? Have you lost all self respect?
Fry: But things are different this time. Last time she was demanding and possessive, but now she wants me to do stuff and stay with her all the time...

Earth calling Zach

2011-03-20T21:36:00.004Z

F: which way does the earth move round ... clockwise or anti-clockwise?
Zach: errr.... ummm .... ANTI-CLOCKWISE!
F: Yes that's right
Zach: Hey and I worked that out with just my brain and this little iPhone, I'm a genius! Hahaha!

The bigger picture...

2011-03-13T11:52:00.006Z

Was searching the internet trying to look at the bigger picture regarding all the recent extreme weather disasters and came across the following piece about events in the UK in 1955 which made me smile for many reasons! So often technology meant to help the world gets used for war and it's nice to know the pendulum swings both ways...

1955: Britain's big freeze
Deep snow and freezing temperatures continue across Britain leaving many parts of the country cut off from essential supplies.
More than 70 roads in Britain are blocked by snow, according to the Automobile Association and hundreds of vehicles have been abandoned in snowdrifts as high as 30ft (9m).
Rail travel has also been severely affected and some areas in northern Scotland have not had a train service for several days.
The RAF has been working flat out to drop food and medical supplies to affected areas.

Concerns for the welfare of the country's thousands of sheep are mounting as many are completely cut-off from food supplies.

Heartfelt abuses

2011-03-07T22:38:00.002Z

So why don’t you go now?
Oh just go on go now

Don’t need your excuses
Your heartfelt abuses

Your silence speaks volumes
Like fancy dress costumes
That masks dust and decay
From our love and obey

Oh why don’t you go now?
Please just go on go now

Don’t need your bad reasons
For changing the seasons

You turned my sun shining
Into whining and pining
Whilst watching daydreams
Fall apart at their seams

the pen-knife is mightier than...

2011-03-07T18:20:00.003Z

Zach: Hey mum you know that film where the man gets his arm trapped under a big rock and he has to cut it off with a pair of toenail clippers...?
J: Errr yeah it's called 127 hours and I think you'll find it was a pen-knife not toenail clippers!

Tone it down

2011-03-06T22:00:00.004Z

G: Hey have a look at this girl's photos on Match.com. I don't want to be rude and it may just be my eyes, but is that what passes for 'athletic and toned' these days?
J: Well she is a bit chunky but you need to remember that to a woman 'athletic and toned' means 'I have a gym membership but I never use it...'

LOVE THIS GUY....!!!

2011-03-03T23:29:00.002Z

Break Even

2011-02-25T22:20:00.002Z

song and dance

2011-02-24T22:59:00.002Z

The scene:
Zach and I driving to Willen Lakes in Milton Keynes and getting completely lost as every road in Milton Keynes looks the exactly same, so I stop to ask directions from someone at a petrol station. He says we need road H6 and Zach had previously said he thought it was 'H...something'.
Zach (singing to a tune he's just made up) 'I was right I was right I was right I knew it I was right...
J: Ok enough thanks I've been doing my best...
Zach: I think I'm going to add some dance steps to that song when we get home mum...

Mint Royale - Blue Song

2011-02-22T23:02:00.000Z

My favourite poet - Hafiz

2011-02-21T22:44:00.002Z

There are different wells within your heart.
Some fill with each good rain,
Others are far too deep for that.

In one well
You have just a few precious cups of water,
That "love" is literally something of yourself,
It can grow as slow as a diamond
If it is lost.

Your love
Should never be offered to the mouth of a
Stranger,
Only to someone
Who has the valor and daring
To cut pieces of their soul off with a knife
Then weave them into a blanket
To protect you.

There are different wells within us.
Some fill with each good rain,
Others are far, far too deep
For that.

Sullivan Street .... I like these boys they're well worth a listen

2011-02-19T22:19:00.003Z

I cradle my doubt
Just to figure it out

Sky Blue

2011-02-17T23:23:00.003Z

Zach: Which episode of Better off Ted shall we watch?
J: Oh I don't mind, you pick.
Zach: Ok. You're episode 8 and I'm episode 3. Ip, dip, dog shit, put it in the microwave and out comes YOU!
J: I'm sure that always used to be 'ip, dip sky blue, who's it? Not you'
Zach: Not any more mum, everyone at school says the 'dog shit' one now!

Smarter than the average...

2011-02-14T22:15:00.004Z

Yogi and BooBoo's plane crashing
Yogi: Check the safety manual BooBoo...
BooBoo: I have Yogi but it's just a picture of us screaming...

Proper Kiss

2011-02-14T22:14:00.000Z

2011-02-13T23:16:00.006Z

If it's not bad it's good...

2011-02-13T00:02:00.005Z

A: You were wrong - you said I'd like that last woman but I really didn't.
J: Oh yeah but when I said you'd like her what I really meant was you wouldn't hate her. I probably should have mentioned that I've lowered the bar quite considerably when it comes to my expectations of our customers recently. It's way, way down there now!
A: So as long as they don't make me want to stab them you think they're ok?
J: Hey it works for me...

Rainy night in Oxford by Zach

2011-02-10T22:37:00.001Z

Burt Munro and the world's fastest indian

2011-02-10T22:34:00.002Z

one and only

2011-02-09T18:49:00.003Z

Zach: oh mum, you're the best mum ever!
J: thanks baby
Zach: by that of course I mean you're the only one I've got. Still on the plus side you don't have any competition...
J: I'll take it.

Better off Ted - best show ever

2011-02-07T16:21:00.003Z

Veronica: Another time, another place. Two other people, it could have been magniflorious.
Phil: You mean that?
Veronica: I do. Particularly the part about two other people

Bohemian Skies

2011-02-06T22:39:00.001Z

2011-01-31T18:43:00.002Z

Cuts both ways...

2011-01-31T18:35:00.002Z

haven't we already broken every rule...

we could have had it all...

2011-01-18T19:57:00.001Z

7 days

2011-01-15T23:21:00.006Z

S: Take that tone out of your voice.
J: What tone?
S: The tone that says that you don't believe a word I say
J: I'm not sure I do believe a word you say - you've been promising to come and see me for months now...
S: Look I'm in Oxford all next week, driving up and down the M40, and I'll definitely come and see you and sort things out between us. You're not seeing anyone are you? I miss you so much... you belong to me don't ever forget that. I really love you ok?
J: Ok... I do still love you too, even after everything that's happened. So I'll see you next week?
S: Yes
7 days later and no sight nor sound of him all week...

2011-01-13T22:11:00.001Z

1/1/11 11:11

2011-01-01T11:11:00.000Z

Zach: Pinch Punch first day of the month. No returns haha!

soul searching

2010-12-20T22:21:00.003Z

the scene: me browsing profiles on Guardian Soulmates when Zach comes into the room and spots what I'm doing
Z: Oh mother has the soul-crushing loneliness of your existence finally got to you haha?
Much hilarity ensued - nothing like having a 10 year old take the piss out of you to put your life in perspective.

still love this song so much...

2010-11-30T23:20:00.000Z

Mystify

2010-11-30T22:47:00.000Z

games people play...

2010-11-29T22:23:00.006Z

Jane: so how are things going with your ex and his girlfriend now?
J: oh it's crazy half the time things are fine and the other half she's threatening to kill herself. On Saturday night she went up to the hospital in the early hours but they just sent her home with some valium!
Jane: I suppose they thought that if she was lucid enough to take herself to hospital she wasn't really serious about killing herself.
J: yes I suppose so. Apparently she's always been like it - all her friends have stories of how she'll just suddenly go off to the bathroom and slash her wrists - never life-threateningly but very dramatic.
Jane: why on earth does he stay with her?
J: oh I think he really does love her. Besides he's always had 'damsel in distress syndrome' as I like to call it, he can't resist a woman who needs rescuing. I think it goes back to when he was a small child and his mother used to constantly go to him crying telling him all her problems with his father (who was very abusive) he wasn't more than about 5 or 6 and he used to have to comfort her and give her advice and basically parent her instead of the other way round.
Jane: gosh that's awful
J: I know. I think that was the problem with our relationship - I've never been into drama and conflict and I'm quite independant - in fact I've always found it hard to let anyone do anything to help me. When he left me for Lynsay it was because he was saving her from her abusive husband supposedly which was a joke really considering how abusive my ex was to me throughout our relationship... OH MY GOD!
Jane: What?
J: I've just realised something for the 1st time. He used to abuse me to make me a damsel in distress so he could then rescue me! And that's the way it always worked - he would shout and scream at me until I cracked and broke down in tears and then he would put his arms around me and say how sorry he was and that he loved me more than anything and that he would always be there for me. That went on for years and I never realised what he was doing...

Most of the time...

2010-11-28T09:47:00.001Z

wish you were here...

2010-11-04T16:01:00.004Z

I wish I could open up my heart like it’s a book
and point to the page and say ‘look... there...
that’s the bit, the bit you didn’t really ever read…’
If you’d read that part you’d maybe understand
why this is so hard for me…
why this is so very hard for me

I wish I could open up my soul like there’s a door
that I could let you in and show you where
I think about you each and every day
and always smile and wish you well
I keep your picture on my windowsill
and close my eyes and kiss you still…

I wish I could open up my memory like a slideshow
so you could see the deep impressions
where you left your footprints in my heart
and we could watch our lovers’ tales unfold
I would pull out all the movies playing in my mind
and put our sweet encounters on continuous rewind

South Park

2010-10-31T13:14:00.005Z

Zach describing a South Park episode, which he thought was particularly hilarious, in detail:
Z:...and then Mr Garrison says it's because you can't jack off (whispers) you know mum, that means play with your willy...
J: Yes Zach I know what it means I just didn't realise that you knew what it meant
Z: Really? Oh I've played with my willy before...
J: Yes darling obviously you've played with your willy before. I just meant that I didn't know that you knew what the term 'jack off' meant as it's rather a rude way of putting it..
Z: Oh is it? Oh I suppose I should have said 'play with your penis'.
J: Haha err...ok. You know I'm not sure your dad should let you watch South Park anyway...

Wedding belles

2010-10-04T00:02:00.003+01:00

J: That boy's an angel Keith he's just so sweet and so very gorgeous
K: I know I've decided I'm going to marry him!
J: Haha you do realise he's not gay?
K: I don't care! There might not be any sex but our wedding album would be beautiful...

Mr Fluffy Bunny

2010-09-20T22:49:00.003+01:00

J: Zach went off on his 1st school trip today, they've gone to Devon on an outdoor adventure week
A: oh it's one of those ones where you're not allowed to contact them by phone?
J: yes, it's very hard but I think Zach will be ok as he's used to being away with his dad, some of the kids have never been away from their parents before. It was so funny, Soloman who is quite a tough kid turned up with his suitcase and a huge fluffy bunny soft toy. I thought it was odd as not even any of the girls brought their teddies but then I realised that he brought it BECAUSE he's tough! He wouldn't have dared bring it if he'd been a wimp. He just stood there with a 'this is my fluffy bunny - any of you got a problem with that' look on his face
A: haha and I bet he added 'and by the way - that's MISTER Fluffy Bunny to you'

dater monitoring

2010-09-11T11:55:00.003+01:00

S: So who were you talking to online?
J: Oh I was just chatting to Gabe. We have this schadenfreude thing going where we each compete to have the least worst dating experience.
S: Really?
J: Yes, though of course because he's a man and I'm a woman we have vastly different criteria as to what constitutes a reasonable date. For him, if he gets to have sex at the end it's a good date whether he likes the woman or not whereas for me it's a good date if I don't go home and cry...

one picture speaks a thousand words...

2010-09-10T19:55:00.003+01:00

Mandy Rules

2010-09-04T22:35:00.001+01:00

bedtime

2010-09-02T23:29:00.003+01:00

J: Zach, why does it take me so long to get you to go to bed these days?
Z: Well you should try saying 'please'
J: Hey...I DO say please!
Z: Oh... well then you should try dragging me against my will then...
J: Gosh, I don't remember reading that in any of my books on parenting 'if your child won't go to bed, drag him against his will...'
Zach unable to speak or stand whilst giggling uncontrollably...

Crossfire

2010-09-01T08:59:00.001+01:00

and our dreams will break the boundaries of our fears...

life's little luxuries

2010-08-30T20:43:00.003+01:00

R: Thanks, but I didn't really didn't need to hear all about your feelings
F: Well when you receive something you don't need - think of it as a luxury...

Make you feel my love

2010-08-28T22:44:00.003+01:00

S: hey don't fall for me baby ......
It's too late isn't it?
J: yes

Say 'cheese'...

2010-08-20T08:51:00.004+01:00

A and J sorting through a photoshoot prior to editing
J: it's amazing how a miniscule, millisecond change in expression can radically alter a person's appearance from one photo to the next isn't it?
A: yes it is, and people's ideas of what a smile is when you tell them to smile is often way off too. When I tell Em to smile she just grins and looks unnatural so I usually just take a photo of her not smiling but then when she looks at the picture she'll say 'oh well at least I'm smiling in that one' even though there isn't a hint of a smile on her face!
J: Really?
A: Yes, but I think that's because in our household, as long as no-one's actually crying we think we're happy.....

more Brilliant Bill - People Suck

2010-08-11T08:32:00.000+01:00

don't know why I like this...but I do!

2010-08-11T07:38:00.000+01:00

The Genius of Bill Hicks

2010-07-28T12:43:00.001+01:00

'it's just a ride. And we can change it any time we want. It's only a choice. No effort, no work, no job, no savings of money. Just a simple choice, right now, between fear and love. The eyes of fear want you to put bigger locks on your doors, buy guns, close yourself off. The eyes of love instead see all of us as one.'

me,you and we

2010-06-27T16:23:00.003+01:00

Z: Mum we need to take the water pistols in. And by we I mean you as there's no 'me' in 'we'
J: hey hang on... there's no 'u' either!!

Bulletproof dignity

2010-06-26T10:08:00.004+01:00

Zach watching Bulletproof Monk with his dad

Nina (the baddie) shows Jade a picture of a refugee kneeling in front of a man with a rifle]
Nina: Tell me, deep inside, at the bottom of your soul, wouldn't you rather be the man about to do the shooting than the man about to be shot?

Zach (aged 9): I'd rather be the one facing the gun - better to die with dignity than live with none...

Good Enough

2010-06-20T09:04:00.000+01:00

what about love?

2010-06-20T06:53:00.006+01:00

J: Look you know I how I feel about you
S: So propose something?
J: Marry me instead!
S: Why do you want to marry me?
J: Because we love each other!
S: I am a muslim... it's not that bloody simple.....

love sheds tears

2010-06-13T11:49:00.009+01:00

The dust has settled
and time has caught us crying
we could make excuses
but we'd just be lying
numbness is the last sensation
dumbness is the realisation
only our own hearts we've broken
...and love sheds tears
for all the words that died unspoken

made in heaven

2010-06-13T10:51:00.003+01:00

J: I'm left with the awful gut wrenching feeling that if only I'd said the right thing, something different, something that would have touched his heart (if he in fact has one!) then I could have turned it all around and had a different outcome, even though I know in reality that he'd already made his decision and nothing I said or did would have changed his mind. Feel so desolate. I'm so stupid...
F: I know exactly how you feel - it's cruel isn't it but you're the victim of an organising principle that's about exploiting your love and care and not validating it. It's hard not to feel angry and cheated and it's impossible to make someone care when they don't. I'm so sorry baby, I know how much it hurts.
J: I know you're right but I'm still so in love with him regardless. I just don't understand how he could willingly decide to enter an arranged marriage with someone he admits he's not in love with...

Prince of Persia

2010-06-01T23:51:00.003+01:00

a long time ago in a galaxy far far away...

2010-06-01T23:49:00.001+01:00

Viktor Frankl

2010-05-19T12:27:00.001+01:00

Another poem by Zach

2010-05-12T00:27:00.003+01:00

You are colour
I am a drawing
I will befriend you
I am sweet
never sour
If you were bitter
I'd never flower

what a tangled web men weave...

2010-05-10T06:58:00.004+01:00

S: I can't understand you J, was I just someone to have sex with for you? I really liked you and I thought you liked me too
J: You were married and you lied to me - you got that the wrong way round I was just someone for you to have sex with on the side
S: I wasn't married. She was my ex and she couldn't understand why I wanted to be with you when she's only 26 and you're a lot older than her. I liked you more than anyone J and she just wanted to mess with my relationship with you
J: So how did she know how old I was just from finding my number on your phone? Maybe we should all get together and ask her and sort this out!
S: I told her I'd be introducing my boy to you so I told her everything about you
J: This all happened 2 years ago - why are you contacting me now?
S: Because I still miss you...
thinks J: Liar, liar, pants on fire!

Fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me...

She and Him

2010-05-10T06:50:00.003+01:00

'I know and you know it too that love like ours is terrible news...'